My Conscience - The Word Salad
People, I know I am a lousy blogger. I seldom update my blog. I always thought I would be writing about technology on my blog ... but so much for that ! ... There are things that move me ... and these things I see a lot these days. Reminds me of a song "Affirmation" by "Savage Garden":
When Super stars and cannon balls are running through your head,
Television freak shows, cops and robbers every where,
the subway makes me nervous, people pushing me too far,
I'd like to break away so take my hand now ...
coz I want to LIVE ... LIKE ANIMALS ... CARELESS AND FREEE !!
I want to run to the jungle with the winds in my hair and sand at me feeeettt ...
This is the kind of final resort I find to break away from these things that bug me. It's a temporary la la land at least I tend to go into, escape reality for a while. When thinking with a sound rational mind, my reactions are quite contrary, in fact, quite measured. YES ! I am a believer ! ... and I think either your ARE one or you are NOT. There is no rational reasoning behind God. Rationale, in my opinion, FAILS to provide rationale for itself, but that is something I wish to save for another post.
So what really is up in my screwed up head ? ... It's all those things that I see very important in a society to be sound and be the least hypocritical. Ours, however, is NOT. We display an array of issues that make us anything BUT sane. And that is EXACTLY what tickles my sanity. Heck, in my plight, I might be on the verge of acting out completely IRRATIONAL and that's only because I am HUMAN.
My beef with the society I live in is very simple. WHY THE FUCK DON'T YOU LIVE UP TO EVEN THE GRAVEST PRINCIPLES WE PROMISED OUR SOCIETY WOULD BE AFTER GAINING INDEPENDENCE ?
I cannot take it anymore. I tend to take these issues HEAD ON ... soliloquy with my own self on my blog and find out the right and wrong while doing it. Honesty as they say, IS the best policy no ? ...
Our judicial system is pretty fucked up. All our major organizations of the state present a picture of a one big clusterfuck ! ... name any department that is disciplined (except perhaps the Army) ? any department that acts in a way that it serves social justice in it's field ? ... ok, granted that it does not do so fully, but how about even minutely ? ... fuck ! ... none of them does !
Any Pakistani who is reading this, it is my sincerest plea to you that PLEASE ... YOU MUST REALIZE THAT THE RESPONSIBILITY SETS UPON US ! ... we claim, and we blame external *powers* for our plight ... but please think about it ... who gave them the opportunity ? ... who provided temptation ? ... WHO is in CONTEMPT of first Kalimah ? ... yes folks, thats us. And we are reaping of what we have sown. We shouldn't be whining about that.
But the fact of the matter is, it's not too late. Even after breaking our county (fall of Dhaka ... remember ? ... o yes, most of you reading this wouldn't have been born till that day ... I wasn't too) have we learned ? ... I guess only a little. But we must strive to learn more.
Start asking yourselves what YOUR role in the society is, instead of trying to point fingers at one another. Execute that role and PAY IT FORWARD ! ... it's absolutely important that we pay it forward !
Please realize the fact that DARKNESS PREVAILS WHEN GOOD MEN FAIL TO ACT ! ... our whole system has plunged into darkness because of that. And what are we waiting for ? ... a Mustafa Kamal Atta-turk ? ... who would beat the crap out of fucking Mullahs ? ... I guess, even if we weren't, we might need one.
It is based on religion that these Mullahs of today have so successfully captivated us, made us "zehni ghulam" (mind slaves) and then used us to serve their own bullshit purposes. Reminds of the time I read how Europe was like when the Church was dominant. But of course, they learned that the Church was nothing but bad news so they banned it from their lives and their constitution. Would we do that ? ... It certainly won't be the most wise thing to do. If we could just only be HUMAN first we can solve all most if not all our problems.
Without further a do (which means bullshit) my conscious is really fucked up. It CANNOT figure out who is at fault besides our own selves, so it has dropped the idea altogether. It has thought and thought and thought about the current times. It has found no one at fault only but our own selves. It is full and it has exploded already ... and now ceasing to exist very soon.
I think to save my sanity I'd be better off WITHOUT a conscious in our society. I'd be better off letting small and petty issues like honesty bug me. After all, this "conscience" is creating a havoc in my life ... this "conscience" ... folks ... really is a menace isn't it ?
Fuck Thy Conscious For Thy Sanity ! ... and that is a deal I would make again in a heart beat ! ... over and out !
